Firstly, I want to share a photo linked to Issue 3. I couldn’t find a picture at the time but after some deep digging into drawers and boxes, I found a photo of myself after the face-on-carpet skidding incident. This was a little while after so the worst of the scabs were gone, but you can imagine what I felt like walking around like this for weeks.
Without further ado - here is the carpet burn:
You can buy me a hot chocolate if you feel sorry for me:
Bad Teenage Poetry
So, I found a black ring binder with silver writing on it - “Kirsteen’s poetry (total crap)”
I think I’m going to film a tiktok challenging others to share their bad poetry (teenage or otherwise). I thought I’d share one of mine here first, just to build up my nerve!
This is from when I was 15 and was experiencing mainly unrequited love.
Tell my heart that
I know his feelings, know his whole
He understands me, but still goes
A look that shows a broken heart will never touch his soul.
The light is gone, so is he
Embrace the dark, hold me near
Left alone - my greatest fear
Souls entwined, lips that touch
His eyes for her alone
My longing takes a second stand,
deserted by another hand.
Eyes that flicker, meet with mine,
silent invitation springs
Mocking glance because he knows
I will go to him.
Live for a second, second best
A quick caress, goodbye
but why?
Empty words stab my heart
cannot bear when they’re together
cannot bear when we’re apart
Left my longing in a barren land
Engraved his echo where love could be
Too much wanted to demand
I know his love is not for me.
I literally cringed about 14 times while typing that! There are worse ones in there too.
Update on Mark 2 - the Catfish
Mark has been upping his game and has asked me to send him nearly £1900 to pay for a new phone and laptop ( I forget what he said happened to his or why he couldn’t pay himself).
I’ve been stringing him along promising the money and seeing how far I can take it until he snaps.
He’s waiting for a mandatory three working days for the money to get into his “agent’s” account.
I ‘accidentally’ sent him a picture of a catfish instead of the receipt he is waiting for.
More to follow :)
Kirsteenatom x